(not) a secret passion

left to right: homemade pizza, baked potato with bechamel sauce, beef doria

I kinda had a thing for kitchen activity. Cooking is not something new to me, though obviously I am no chef. I am moving out from my house in less than a week, and cooking makes me feel at ease. 

random quiz

I am currently very bored while doing a pile of work, so I filled out these random questions because it’s no use to curse my ADD. You are welcome to do the same if you want.

  • What do you expect from your life? do the best, achieve the best. 
  • Which traits do you consider to be the most important for a man to have? intelligence, manner, passion. 
  • What was the happiest moment of your life? living in Taipei.
  • How would you described yourself in one word? INTJ
  • What are your hobbies? reading, dancing, cooking, crafting, etc. 
  • Which is one of your habits that you are most proud of? putting a high standard
  • Is there anything that you would not share with anybody? a lot
  • Do you like to read? If so, what types of books do you prefer reading? wide range: from textbooks to comics. 
  • Which habit do you want to give up? peeling the side of my thumb nail. 
  • Did you enjoy your college years? yes!
  • Do you like to dance? yes, I do Bali and belly dance.
  • What is your zodiac sign? pisces
  • Do you regret any action of yours from the past? yes, but it’s no use.
  • Do you believe in love at first sight? not really
  • Is it easy for you to forgive? not really
  • Describe your idea of a perfect vacation? beautiful landscapes + crazy things
  • Which place do you prefer the most in your house? kitchen, working room
  • Which is the most important ingredient of a successful relationship? trust
  • Do you believe in God? no
  • Given a chance, which things would you like to change from your past? 30.05.08
  • Which kind/type of music do you like? from Lionel Richie to Pitbull
  • What do you think is your most important strength? mind
  • Do you get along with your parents and other family members? yes and no
  • What are your favorite hangouts? depends on the mood. from the park to the club. 
  • What do you give more importance to while taking a decision, logic or intuition? both
  • How important is money for you in life? judge by my career choice.
  • Do you think you are an emotional person? yes, because I have a list of things that could pissed me off instantly, but no because my F in my MBTI test is only 12%
  • Do you have a dream in your life? What? contributing in education for the society: lecturing, doing things, write an academic journal. 
  • What your favorite sports activity? dancing is my sport.
  • Do you follow a set/specific daily routine? sort of
  • Are you a religious/spiritual person? no
  • Do you enjoy the activity of cooking? yes
  • Do you have any role model in your life? no
  • What is your favorite food? lasagna, salmon sushi, green tea ice cream, custard pudding. 
  • What is your opinion about one-night stands? not taboo, just not my style.
  • Is there someone you’d like to date? maybe. I don’t reserve seats.
  • Which advise do you think was the best that you have received? if it’s not broken, don’t fix it.
  • Would you forgive the boy who cheats on you? yes and no
  • What is the best compliment that you have received? standing applause from my professor and the whole class after my final exam paper presentation. 
  • What is your favorite drink? liquors. apple martini, so far.
  • Which colors amongst these, black/white would you go with? black
  • Are you a shopaholic? not really. 
  • What is the most expensive gift you ever received? a diamond pendant.
  • Which was the dumbest purchase that you ever made? shirts in the wrong size.
  • How important is marriage for you? none at all. 
  • Do you think virtual social networking is a need of time? it’s only an easy way to stay in touch with my old friends abroad, so…yes and no. 
  • Do you have a picture about the dream home in your mind? yes for sure. 

my childhood tale

This is the story I wrote when I was five years old. I rewrite them in English, since the original one is a messy four panel comic. I’m actually still wondering what was I thinking at that time and what cynical sense made me wrote the story. The thing is, even as a kid, I’m not even fond of rabbits. Really. 

fill in the blank

What do you have in mind while you were filling a questionnaire, working on your test, filling a form? You might be filling in the blank. But have you ever questioned the term ‘filling the blank’? Well, at the moment, I do. Have you ever think is there any actual ‘fill in the blank’? Or, the real freedom to fill what you want above the dots?

We normally fill the conceptual ‘blank’ but not the literal ‘blank’. As in mindset we usually had it in mind a lot, but in some sense it’s not merely blank, it had the dots and the alphabets that you read ‘fill in the blank’. Next, we had the trigger or tendency, boxes, on what we want it to be filled. Like, when we asked something to someone, actually we are asking them to fill in the blank. But often, we had those criterias, tendencies, boxes, on what we want it to be filled. In the end, is there any real pure ‘fill in the blank’? Plato would just lightly say, it only exists in the world of ideas, perhaps.

It also probably shows that everything is political. Even filling the blanks in a form has it own norms and unwritten regulations. ‘Filling the blank’ is never that free, filling it and the prejudice/consequence afterwards are two different things, no? The tentacles of system that restrain what’s filled in the blank are political. It is hegemonicly arranged. So, mindsets are indeed arranged. And all the times we think that what meets the eye is just the social effect. But then, I believe it’s not. 

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why are you writing?

There are some things that keeps intriguing my mind. Why does someone write? Most people would dearly answer: ” To express my mind”, or ” To shout out to the world” (to me both basicly sounds the same). Or perhaps ” Because words are catalyst puzzle”. Whatever you may say, to me most people are not that humble to say so. Humble in the sense of, the one who’s answering at that moment was their conscious. But what about their unconscious? Just say, this is merely because I think the only part from human which is humble is the unconscious. But then, the unconscious itself could be manipulated.

One reason why I start quitting on twitter was that I think (say it, I judge. Yes I do) some people are just ego maniacs who used their twitter as a display to show off.  Sorry to say, but bluntly, that’s how I feel. And yes, you have the right to mirror back those words to me.

I found a few blogs that annoys me, for example. These people are those type who said that they wrote for the sake of molding out their ideas out of their head. But what do you think, when you read in the “About Me” section, they were , saying that ” I’m not going to write in the ‘about me’ section, you can guess about my age, school, what I’m like blahblahblah from my writing…so good luck.” or ” I won’t say I’m smart, but you can judge me from my writing…” That is TOTALLY SICK. First, doh…you DID just wrote the what so called “about me” section. Second, well if you’re trying to make someone else curious of you…do a proper writing with intriguing ideas, then someone will eventually be. Luring out such bait is somewhat idiot.

But then, if you tell this matter regarding the author, will they listen? Will they even realize that they are unconsciously doing this? My brain was catalyzed to read the journal “Measuring Psychopathology”. I need more reference about this. So for now, let’s redefine the word “humble”, shall we?

Technology Reduces Human’s Intuition?

Have you ever wonder why intuitive people are very less populated nowadays? According to Myers Briggs scale, In (Intuitive) people only sum up to less than 2% from the whole population, where as only 1/3 of them are women (even generally they are more dominant).

Was it for example, handphone usage? We all know that before a wireless technology was even founded, human had the barrier to detect each other in separated space, and thus their natural instinct developed to sense another human’s existence, even aura, and reading the signs of nature. Ever since technology developed, human are attached with tools that creates an invisible link from one to another. Thus, a system within a society is also diasporing. This is noticeable, of course. But the thing that has been missed is the cutoff and the reducing needs of intuition. Since there is a tool that enable the communication linkage between human, intuition is much less needed than before. In my personal opinion we also need to note that the development of technology itself also slowly but sure develop a certain mindset within human’s brain: that is, the blunder of the term ‘logic’. Personally I think it’s really stupid to consider intuition as something irrational, judgemental, just because your capacity as a human to use your intuition is not the way it supposed to be anymore, like perhaps, a thousand years ago.

This is a long term process of course, but ever since the intuition is less needed, I would say the system goes similar as Darwin’s theory of evolution. The capability encrypted in the mental mindset had evoluted of course, not only the capacity of the brain and the shape of the body.  The thing is, it is not a positive landmark since it is reducing, and not developing. So in some sense, human capacity are developing in one term but going backward in other things. I would say this is one blind spot that crops as one blunder within the current mortals living these days. People keep saying intuition is this and that, it’s oftenly described as something abstract and irrational. But I believe there must be some way to describe it, even in human blunder mindset method, carved in whatsoever called ‘logic’. I need time to figure how to make this explanation. I guess I made too much notes already. Oh yes, tell me that again, I heard so much already about being ambitious.

So now, if you think your intuition is not working, blame it on your blackberry *evilsmirk*.