(not) a secret passion

left to right: homemade pizza, baked potato with bechamel sauce, beef doria

I kinda had a thing for kitchen activity. Cooking is not something new to me, though obviously I am no chef. I am moving out from my house in less than a week, and cooking makes me feel at ease. 


random quiz

I am currently very bored while doing a pile of work, so I filled out these random questions because it’s no use to curse my ADD. You are welcome to do the same if you want.

  • What do you expect from your life? do the best, achieve the best. 
  • Which traits do you consider to be the most important for a man to have? intelligence, manner, passion. 
  • What was the happiest moment of your life? living in Taipei.
  • How would you described yourself in one word? INTJ
  • What are your hobbies? reading, dancing, cooking, crafting, etc. 
  • Which is one of your habits that you are most proud of? putting a high standard
  • Is there anything that you would not share with anybody? a lot
  • Do you like to read? If so, what types of books do you prefer reading? wide range: from textbooks to comics. 
  • Which habit do you want to give up? peeling the side of my thumb nail. 
  • Did you enjoy your college years? yes!
  • Do you like to dance? yes, I do Bali and belly dance.
  • What is your zodiac sign? pisces
  • Do you regret any action of yours from the past? yes, but it’s no use.
  • Do you believe in love at first sight? not really
  • Is it easy for you to forgive? not really
  • Describe your idea of a perfect vacation? beautiful landscapes + crazy things
  • Which place do you prefer the most in your house? kitchen, working room
  • Which is the most important ingredient of a successful relationship? trust
  • Do you believe in God? no
  • Given a chance, which things would you like to change from your past? 30.05.08
  • Which kind/type of music do you like? from Lionel Richie to Pitbull
  • What do you think is your most important strength? mind
  • Do you get along with your parents and other family members? yes and no
  • What are your favorite hangouts? depends on the mood. from the park to the club. 
  • What do you give more importance to while taking a decision, logic or intuition? both
  • How important is money for you in life? judge by my career choice.
  • Do you think you are an emotional person? yes, because I have a list of things that could pissed me off instantly, but no because my F in my MBTI test is only 12%
  • Do you have a dream in your life? What? contributing in education for the society: lecturing, doing things, write an academic journal. 
  • What your favorite sports activity? dancing is my sport.
  • Do you follow a set/specific daily routine? sort of
  • Are you a religious/spiritual person? no
  • Do you enjoy the activity of cooking? yes
  • Do you have any role model in your life? no
  • What is your favorite food? lasagna, salmon sushi, green tea ice cream, custard pudding. 
  • What is your opinion about one-night stands? not taboo, just not my style.
  • Is there someone you’d like to date? maybe. I don’t reserve seats.
  • Which advise do you think was the best that you have received? if it’s not broken, don’t fix it.
  • Would you forgive the boy who cheats on you? yes and no
  • What is the best compliment that you have received? standing applause from my professor and the whole class after my final exam paper presentation. 
  • What is your favorite drink? liquors. apple martini, so far.
  • Which colors amongst these, black/white would you go with? black
  • Are you a shopaholic? not really. 
  • What is the most expensive gift you ever received? a diamond pendant.
  • Which was the dumbest purchase that you ever made? shirts in the wrong size.
  • How important is marriage for you? none at all. 
  • Do you think virtual social networking is a need of time? it’s only an easy way to stay in touch with my old friends abroad, so…yes and no. 
  • Do you have a picture about the dream home in your mind? yes for sure. 

Suddenly March

I must admit time goes by too fast. Suddenly its march 2011 already, its nearly my birthday again. I still don’t know what to do, for me my time had stopped 3 years ago: 29/05/2008. I sense its nearly the moment for my time clock to start ticking. I just don’t know when. Just take this as a little confession.

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short note: life is a quest

This has been my deja vu for years. But it came to me again recently these few days.

Life is a duty. Some people mind the destination, others just want to enjoy the journey. To me, you need to do both. I believe some part of my destiny is meant for other entity. So I need to do both: mind the destination but enjoy the journey. No, not just enjoying the journey. I need to open my sense widely.

Some mortals (or maybe Elohim) forgot or didn’t even notice that there are no such solo riders. Well I think I could but no, not yet. I still enjoy this bumpy ride with a silly drunken driver. and me? Just a navigator. But I’ll sure jump off I got bored.

I’ve been lost too, remember? So it doesn’t matter even if I got a little lost again, I know what to do next. Ya all ya all, enjoy your quest!

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maybe you should call me ‘Frank’

Maybe you’re wondering..why Frank? it’s a men’s name, isn’t it? Indeed. But that’s not it. The reason is simple. I think I’m really frank, I said everything straight to the point and I oftenly don’t care to whom I’m talking to, to me everyone is the same. A mistake is a mistake and a critic is a critic, no exceptions. Now you get why a lot of my teachers hated me :p

Another proof that life is only a mind game. I broke up with the guy I dated for 6 years, and I didn’t cried when we broke up. I believe my mind, my intuition no matter how hard it is but I stand tall. Somehow it’s funny that I feel much better right now, I mean not the heal, but if you compare my condition when I’m still with him and my current condition, well I love it this way.

I had no relationships to maintain, I had no obligation to come back to Indonesia if I happen to study abroad for masters, no rush of marriage…and I could still be close to my bestfriends especially men. I love making friends with men: no jealousy if you had a better relationship, looking better, cook better, achieve better in academics etc. I don’t like unhealthy rivality in friendship.


I had my own elixir right now. I don’t care about how should I plan with this person, in fact I don’t plan to plan anything at all. I believe in each other and that’s the only thing that matters. He teaches me how to be mature, and how to open positive possibilities in life. And that’s all I need.


If you might wonder, how I believe that much in someone, and in future…well it’s like holding the world you want in your hand. See the picture above? You had the world you want in a small glass.

no resolution

Ah…maybe it’s a little late to talk about new years resolution. I may sound pessimistic but what I’m gonna do is making no resolution.
I do believe in some ways when we select a target, then it will be a final destination. What happens afterwards is our mindset is set to some sort of roads, turns and exit. Limitations, invisible borders, that’s what I mean. So what I’m gonna do is setting everything free, no limitations, no exceeded expectations, no target, none whatsoever. Just doing my best in everything I can.
Last year my life was screwed up with my thesis, my (ex) boyfriend, work, master program seeking etc. And how did I manage to get out of the whole crappy mess? Ask those who saved me. Say hello to my brand new life 🙂

start from here…

Have you ever feel something, but you don’t know how to describe it? I think, even just a few times, everybody does. And that’s what I’m feeling right now: undescribed. Unfortunately, I found something that could represent them better than words:

(keep calm and breathe)

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In some ways I am too perfectionist, I need everything to get in order…and when it’s messed up I’ll freak out. As the time passed by, I learn not to be too much stiff. During my early childhood I moved to several town, including several countries, that’s why I’m forced to learn English, reading, and writing quite early. I get used to read books, any kind of books: comic, story books, encyclopedia, and being thought not to do things that might distract my study such as playing PC game.  As I am living in an apartment with other immigrants and locals, I was also taught to be well mannered. Maybe those were some reasons why I used to be that much stiff, besides, basicly I am an INTJ anyway, know what I mean?

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